just visiting an old couple on the ground floor today.. a very lovely couple.. they live in this building for 50 years.. yeah, it’s an old building…
i knew them since i live here, for practically almost 5 years.. spent several times visiting them.. it’s always wonderful visiting old people, hearing their stories, learning new things from them..
well, i don’t have grandparents and longing to have some.. maybe that’s why i enjoy the times i spent there..
and they told me, that two weeks ago they just celebrated their diamond wedding…
a diamond wedding!! 60 years of marriage!! wow….
it’s just impress me again and again to hear and witness such a lovely love story..
and she proudly told me that her husband still loves her in the same way as they met more than 60 years ago.. wow…
she can barely walk now.. by the age of 85, it’s normal… and her husband patiently taking care of her, doing things she couldn’t do for her, without complaining, with love.. very touching… an unconditional love…
wow….
i just broke up with my boyfriend… and it was kinda hard to accept it at first, because we were forced to do it.. well, i better said that i am the one who was forced to do it..
for quite a short but torturing times i was mad, angry with my condition, mad at people around me, very mad and upset with several people… blaming people, blaming me, blaming God..
tried to change things i couldn’t change..
tried to fix things i couldn’t fix…
tried to reach things i can not reach..
depressed, confused, mad, angry, dissapointed..
felt hopeless.. didn’t know what to do… felt left alone…
but by the time i learned to rely everything in God’s hands, wow, it’s such a relieve… step by step i learn to accept things and people the way they are.. i’m not trying anymore to change things around me or feeling angry, dissapointed and depressed anymore..
at first i was worried that i might not gonna find exactly a man like my last boyfriend..
did you ever felt losing something precious, the one and only, something you can not buy or get anywhere? that the other thing you find after is just a replica, that you wont be satisfied by it, finding you still comparing this one with the one you’ve lost?
well, that’s how i felt.. felt that the next boyfriend after won’t be as good as the last..
and suddenly i realized, that my love for him wasn’t pure.. and that i laid may happiness on people…
i didn’t wanna lose him, because he done things that make me happy and because he’d do things that make me happy.. and if he doesn’t, i’m going to get mad, dissapointed, starting a fight, just because!!
did a lots of reading lately.. and discovered a true meaning of love.. taken from the famous 1 Corinthians 13, 4-8…
4 Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; 5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; 6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. 8 Love never fails.
that are all the conditions that God longing to find in us.. with this vers, we can measure ourselves.. did we fulfill His conditions?
love doesn’t envy…
to love someone doesn’t mean to possess them..
to love someone means to be there for them..
love bears all things.. love endures all things…
accept the other person the way they are.. not trying to change them..
just read a book from Watchman Nee. He studied Paulus’ book, Romans, and came to the conclusion: Paulus talks about Jesus’ blood and cross.
The blood is shown as a method to clean us from our sins.
But the cross is about burying our old natures and beginning a new life with Jesus.
And that’s what Jesus want, that we beginning a new life with Him!
and we’ll learn lots of new things.. like to love unconditionally..
Eleanor Roosevelt once said: "My job is to love my husband. God’s job is to change him."
it’s not going to be easy… but, hey, all we need is take it to the Lord in prayer
i’m not worried anymore about anything.. my future, my school, my life, my future husband.. i’ve put it in God’s hands.. and i believe, He who already guided me this far, going to guide me further.. and that He arranges lovely things for me… just have to surrender to Him and let Him do the guide…
isn’t it wonderful, having a friend like Jesus??
you don’t need to worry about a thing!!!
What a friend we have in Jesus,
all our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilege to carry
everything to God in prayer!
O what peace we often forfeit,
O what needless pain we bear,
all because we do not carry
everything to God in prayer.
Have we trials and temptations?
Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be discouraged;
take it to the Lord in prayer.
Can we find a friend so faithful
who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness;
take it to the Lord in prayer.
Are we weak and heavy laden,
cumbered with a load of care?
Precious Savior, still our refuge;
take it to the Lord in prayer.
Do thy friends despise, forsake thee?
Take it to the Lord in prayer!
In his arms he’ll take and shield thee;
thou wilt find a solace there.